beautiful new year...

Yippppiiiiieeee kaaaaaaayyyyeeeeee.....
Its new year now... 2012.. WOW..
Well now i'm in netherland .. And i just past the most beautiful new year celebration ever in my whole life...

Here in netherland, utrecht in the complex where i live, the place was very clean, and empty.. There's no many people.. And it give such a very peaceful sensation which i miss alot, since i life in a metropolitan city like jakarta... So we ate indonesian traditional food, and we play wii together.. It was so much excitement.. And while we're playing we ate some traditional cake that people used to eat during new year eve..olie bol and appelbeignet.. The we have some walk along the complex while we were waiting for the new year to came.., and we count down the time and here come the 2012 that everybody was waiting for.. And everyone in netherland burn a firecracker.. GOD it was very amazing, very fantastic..the air was cold, but inside my heart i feel very warm and passionate... The colourful light that combine with the dry branches that the leave has fall during autumn make a remarkable silhouette.. It was really breath taking.. But i still feel something was uncomplete.. I wish someday i will be able to experience such a beautifuul new year like this with somebody "special"...

new year wish !!

A good health
A better year
A new phone
A great report card
Be a better person
Eat more delicious food
New camera
New friend
Travel around the world
More shopping
More good stuff to buy
More new cloth
More good movie to watch
More novel to read
More time to sleep
More holiday
More memorable occasion
Became taller
Became smarter
Became prettier
Became a better person
More patient
More happy
More different things to try
More things to do
And may be a boyfriend :p

Rangkuman TIK ulangan 3

1. Jaringan komp / network : sebuah kumpulan komputer, printer dan peralatan lainnya yang saling behubungan, informasi dan data dapat di hub melalui kapel sehingga dpt bertuker informasi, dll

2. LAN ( local area network) jaringan yg mengabungkan antara perangkat keras dengan lunak setiap komputer dengan menggunakan data yg sama agar dpt berkomunikasi dalam area tertentu. Kantor, lab, gedung, univ

3. MAN (metropolitan area network) sistem jaringan komp yg mempunnyai area kerja antar kota / provinsi, kota,n gedung, pabrik, kampus

4.WAN ( wide area network) lkingkupnya mencapai provinsi/ bahkan negara

5. Hardwate u/ membangun jaringan :
Komp u/ server : pusat pengendali
Komp u/ workstation : client
Land card /nic (network interface card) kom antar jaringan
Hub : menghubungkan beberapa segmen ethernet menjadi 1 segMen
Kabel utp (unnshielded twisted pair) menghubungkan komp dalam 1 jaringan
Konektor rj45 : penghubung/ konektor u/ utp

6. Hardware u/ memperluar jaringan :
Switch : mengalokasikan jalur lalu lintas data dri setiap segmen jaringan ke jaringan tujuan
Repeater : periferal _/ mengulangi sinyal yg di trima sblm d kirim ke almt tujuan dln jaringan
Bridge periferal jaringan yg menghubkan bbrapa segmen jaringan sepanjang jalur data
Router : memilih jaringan tujuan n meneruskan pengiriman paket data pada jaringan khusus
Gateway : dipakai jika lapisan osi dri 2 jaringan lan bnr" tdk identik

7. Topologi : arsitektur komp jaringan yaitu how 1 jarinngan d sususun agar komp dpt saling berhub.

8. Jenis" topologi :
Bus: linier karena hubnya hanya melalui 1 kabel yg linier, ( kabel koaksial) awal dan akhir kabel di beri terminator
Star: hub antar node, d hub gn peralatan hub/concentrator
Ring: saling berhub antar node

9.Kartu antar muka jaringan (nic) network adapter, peralatan utama yg hrs ada u/ menunjang kom antar kimp, ethernet, arcnet, token ring.

10. Media penghubung jaringan : wired network, wireless network

11. Wired network :
Kabel utp (inshielded twisted pair) sepasang konduktor yg terbungkus plastik dan dilapisi plastik sbg isolator yg di beri waran jangkauan frekuensi 100hz-5mhz
Kabel stp (shielded twisted pair) memiliki pungkus rangkap
Kabel koaksial: konduktor inti tembaga yg dilapisi 3 pembungkus, 1 n 3 isolator, 2 konduktor. Konektor yg di pake bnc (bayonet network connectorr konektor t dan terminator 50 ohm, peredam sinyal
Serat iptik, kaca: plastik yg berfungsi sbg transmisi sinyal berbentuk cahaya, mudah patah, mahal, kec 10 mbps - 2 gbps

12. Wireless network: gelompang elektromagnetik, jangkauan frekuensi (bandwidth). Basis pci

13. Protokol jaringan, suatau peraturan yg sama dlm berkom antar komp agar dpt bertukekan info

14 protokol sistem jaringan :
Protokol komunikasi antar peralatan jaringan : mengatur bentuk n jenis data yg dikirim, tentukan besar listrik,banyak kabel yg di gunakan u/ proses transmisi
Protokol dari sistem operasi digunakan : netware, protokol utama IPX/SPX microsoft netbeui, internet TCP/IP

15. Cara kerja dpt di lihat berdasarkan tipe jaringan : tipe server n peer to peer

16. Server: terdiri dri server yg workstation terhub dlm jaringan dikeloloa o/ pengontrol domain. User di kumpulkan dan si simban di database , jadi bisa dipakai jika izin pengontrol domain

17. Peer to peer : setiap komp dpt membuat account user sehingga bebas, ttp tdk memmbedakan sistem os, jd workgroup.

LOVE ALERT !!!!!!!

>trust me.... this time, it's not about me... it's about MY BROTHER.... surprise surprise..!!!!
i never even guess, that my brother would fall in love with my best friend's elder sister, which is my friend too...
guess who ??? hmmm..... actually i'm not 100% sure, but what i think and see, is that both of them is falling in for what they called LOVE...amazing right.... still can't believe that my brother, could actually fall in love with a girl (not that he's gay or something, but you know....) her name is Regina Fortuna Victoria, well she's my brother age and also angel's big sister.... first time i think that my brother gonna be in a relationship with Angel, because both of them have been close for several month or even a year i remember.But it surprise me enough because, it turns out to be the other way around.... they have been BBM'ing, chatting, texting for 24-7 and i assume that they have gone for a several date... fun right.... they gone to watch movie, have dinner, how romantic... gina even helped my brother to put his necklace. for what i've been watching they usually tell each other about everything... even a smallest and unimportant think.... my parents even think that they are having a relationship... but i suggest it haven't go that far... hahahaha... owhh i forget to tell you guys, that today i read their chat history ( i didn't mean it actually , because i was doing some school thingy and their chat just pops out from nowhere.. it's not my fault that i'm very curious to know, but i fid it very very very interesting) OMG ! my brother gonna kill me, if he find out this... but no worries, he don't even know i own a blog. after all he has no time to read this because he was busy chatting with gina.(hope so... *finger crossed*) hahahahaha LOL... you know, when they are together, they forget that there's more than a million people living, i mean as if that there's only both of them who live in this world... what surprise me more is that my brother suddenly change his bbm's profile picture of a baby praying and watching in front of a cell phone, that say SHE SAID SHE'D CALL........ wow :o... and he change his MSN status to don't you hear it?? the sound of my heartbeat.. the one and only that beats for you.. aaaaaa....so romantic..
but we never know what GOD's plan... well just see...i'll update for more info... what you guys think ?? will they got serious, or just gonna be friend only ??

TIK - rangkuman ulangan 2 *another unimportant thing*

1. Komputer : merupakan rangkaian dari jaringan periferal.
2. Periferal : perangkat input/output yang merupakan bagian dari pendukung sistem.
3. Komponen penunjang komputer:
- perangkat masukan (input device)
- perangkat pemprosesan (central processing unit/cpu)
- perangkat penyimpanan ( storage device)
- perangkat keluaran ( output device)
4. perangkat masukan merupakan alat yang memberikan sinyal masuk kepada sistem komputer. Masukan tersebut berupa sinyal input dari maintainace input.
5. Sinyal input adalah segala sinyal yang akan di kelola oleh system computer.
6. Sinyal mainteainance adalah sinyal yang di gunakan untuk mengolah sinyal input.
7. Input device di bagi menjadi : perangkat masuk langsung dan tidak langsung.
8. Perangkat masuk langsung input langsung di proses cpu.
9. Contoh perangkat masuk langsung : mouse, keyboard, joystick, scanner, microphone, optical drive.
10. Perangkat masuk tidak langsung, data yang masuk tidak langsung di proses tapi di rekam dahulu oleh media penyimpanan luar seperti pita magnetic.
11. Contoh perangkat masuk tidak langsung : key-to-tape, key-to-card, key-to-disk.
12. Mouse berfungsi ntuk mengatur posisi pointer pada layar computer, bias mendrag n mendrop file.
13. Keyboard : peralatan masuk langsung yang terdiri dari tombol-tombol huruf dan tombol-tombol fungsi,. Ada yang standard dan extended
14. Joystick : peralatan input tambahan untuk mempermudah penggunaan komputer dalam game.
15. Scanner : peralatan untuk membaca input baik data maupu gambar.
16. Microphone : alat elektronika yang berguna untuk mengubah sinyal suara menjadi sinyal listrik.
17. Optical drive : CD-ROM, DVD-ROM
18. CD-ROM (compact disk read only memory) membaca data input dari kepingan cd (n x 150 KB/s).
19. DVD-ROM ( digital versatile disc read only) membaca data input dari kepingan dvd ( n x 10,55 Mbit/s).
20. Perangkat pemprosesan (cpu) merupakan pusat pengolahan dan pengontrolan segala proses data.
21. Peralatan pemprosesan data terdiri dari Control Unit, Arithmatic Logic Unit, Memory.
22. CU bertugas untuk menerjemahkan perintah atau instruksi secara berurutan yang di sebarkan ke seluruh bagian computer.
23. ALU ubtuk memproses data melalui perhitungan penambahan dan pengurangan, perbandingan , serta logika
24. Memory penampung data pasa proses aplikasi program yang di masukan ke computer.
25. Mikroprosesor pengabugan ke semua alat pemprosesab ke sirkuit intergrasi.
26. Mikroprosesor terdiri atas Intel dan AMD (ada di motherboard)
27. Motherboard adlah papan sirkuit elektronik yang menjadi pusat dari sebuah computer atau laptop
28. Motherboard biasanya ada : cpu socket, memory slot, chipset, slot, konektor power.
29. cpu socket adalah tempat mikroprosesor di letakan.
30. Memory slot : tempat memori computer diletakan.
31. Chipset : chip yang mengatur interaksi antar perangkat yang lain
32. Slot : ekspansi, PCI, AGP, PCI Express
33. Konektor power : menerima masukan listrik dari power supply unit
34. Perangkat penyimpan berfungsi untuk menyimpan data yang telah di masukan dan juga menyimpan hasil kerja cpu
35. Storage device di bagi : memori internal dan memori external.
36. Memori internal : memori pada cpu terdiri dari rom (read only memory) dan ram (random access nenory)
37. ROM memori yang bersifat permanen yang dapat dibaca tapi tidak dapat di perbaharui, berfungsi untuk menyimpan operasi computer
38. RAM: memori sementara jika computer mati, maka data / program akan hilang
39. EDORAM ( estended data out dynamic random access memory)
40. RDRAM ( rambus dynamic random access memory)
41. SDRAM ( synchoronous dynamic random access memory)
42. DDR SDRAM (double data rate synchoronous dynamic random access memory)
43. DDR2 SDRAM (double data rate two synchoronous dynamic random access memory)
44. DDR3 SD RAM (double data rate tree synchoronous dynamic random access memory)
45. Memori eksternal : media penyimpan yang bersifat tetap
46. Hardisk : media yang digunakan sebagai alat booting da penyimpan data
47. Hardisk di bedakan menjadi
- IDE ( intergrated device electronics)
- SCSI ( small computer system interface)
- SATA ( serial advance technology attachment)
48. ata 66- 66 mb/s
49. ata 100-100 b/s
50. ata 133 – 133 mb/s
51. sata 1 – 150 mb/s
52. sata 2 – 300 mb/s
53. cd rom : media menyimpan data dalam bentuk kepingan cakram
54. dvd rom : media menyimpan data dalam bentuk kepingan cakram
55. floppy disk : (disket) nedia penyimpan data namun kecil
56. flashdisk : penyimpan data eksteral melalui penghubung USB
57. flash memory : alat menyimpan data eksternal dalam bentuk kartu memori
58. Output device : merupakan pelengkapa computer utuk menampilkan atau mengeluarkan hasil proses kerja computer
59. Monitor : menampilkan hasil kerja pemprosesan computer secara visual baik gambar atau data. Crt (tabung) (murah, besa dan boros listrik). Lcd (ramping dan hemat listrik, mahal)
60. Printer : peralatan keluaran untuk menapilkan hasil pemporsesan computer dalam bentuk tulisan maupun gambar
61. Printer Dotmartix : menggunakan pita seperti mesin ketik
62. Printer Inkjet : menggunakan tinta
63. Printer Laser: menggunakan toner
64. Printer inkjet dapat menggunakan tinta infus/suntik (hemat biaya cetak, merusak printer, hilang garansi)
65. Speaker perangkat keluaran yang menampilkan sinyal suar



wow.... another unimportant thing right.... question is, how am i supposed to memorizied it ?????? well i used computer, but all i know is just how to used it and made good function of it. i don't study it because i'm not gonna ended as a computer teacher.

necholase.wordpress.com

okay so the tittle was little bit weird ! no it's not a little it is so weird
so it was my teacher's blog... (not important)
so Last Friday (hahah, kayak lagu aja) he told our class to open his blog to find poetry and memorize it for Monday. i opened it from my smartphone (blackberry) and because of it, the blog became so weird that i think i has open a wrong page.
so apart from 13 poetry i chose the easiest and the most common poetry that my friend chose. so here's the poetry :

To a Stranger
by Walt Whitman

passing stranger !
you do not know how longingly I look upon you..
you must be he I was seeking….
or she I was seeking
(it comes to me, as a dream)
I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you
All is recall’d as we flit by each other
Fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured,
You grew up with me
Were a boy with me
Or a girl with me
I ate with you
And slept with you
Your body has become not yours only
Nor left my body mine only
You give me the pleasure of your eyes, face, flesh
As we pass
You take of my beard, breast,
Hands in return
I am not to speak with you
I am to think of you when I sit alone
Or wake at night alone
I am to wait
I do not lose you…
i was memorizing it until the rain cme, omg i really love rain,but this time,the rain disturb me, i got a lot of inspiration to write my own poetry called rain so here it is :

Rain
I love the rain so damn much..
I love how the water spatter down into the earth surface
The way that the raindrop came and dance along with earth
With the trees, houses, vehicles sort of making a choreography
And I just like to watch the water pouring from beneath the sky
Like the a tear of heaven,
As if it’s telling us how the world is crying with us
Echo’s of a sound the of the droplets made
Making a harmonious song that crowded my mind and feelings
For at least making me fell better because it’s loud
Making myself can’t hear a thing that I don’t want to hear
And on how the rain maid a salty smell
That’s freshen up your mind blogging
How the rain made the passing surrounding dark and gloomy
Turn the whole environment to a cold, and deep emptiness
How it block the warm sun ray of light
Giving me time to be alone and think
And when wind were breezing, I light candle
Which accompanied my loneliness in my small cocky bedroom
Shadow that belt me around to hug me
While I was minding my regrets and life
Writing or reading things I want to do
I just love the rain, on how I can stand and cry without anyone knowing
And mostly because of the rainbow it made after it
it brings happiness back to my life.
okay it's really really weird so don't laugh or better i suggest you not to read it...okay so the rain made me slept at 2,because i still have to memorize the poetry to make sure that my result gonna be atleast good. it turns put that because many of my friends staring and laughing and teasing me, i lost my concerntation and forget the poetry and start to laugh too... weird huh... hahaha what a mess....

FUN !

if you read the title, you might think that i am so happy right now or something great and fun happen to me... but the thing is, why do i write FUN is because i want to CONSIDER biology as a FUN subject... i was very interesting that only half of Protist chapter have driving me nuts.... oh my god, what a fun subject... :& i'm so so so so so frustrated that i say it was fun. how can we memorize a greek organism which is so not important... i'm sure i'm gonna fail. NOT AN EPIC FAIL !!!!!! what the hell with this subject ???? so not cool... can i just tear my book and go to sleep.... even when the test paper went to my desk, i just want to ask Christine for a remedial already..... hahahaha okay so this is nly a few of it's summary about the protist....

PROTISTA (yeah… happy ☺ !)
Organisme yang memiliki struktur sel eukariot, uniseluler maupun multiseluler dan tidak memiliki jaringan yang sebenarnya

Protista Menyerupai Jamur
Merupakan jamur parasit dan predator yang menghasilkan spora.

Jamur Parasit : Jamur air pengurai uniseluler yang hidup di perairan

Jamur Predator : jamur lendir yang hidup menyerupai Amoeba, juga merupakan jamur yang bermigrasi membentuk struktur seperti spora

KESAMAANNYA DENGAN JAMUR : memiliki struktur yang menghasilkan spora heterotrof parasit atau pengurai

Sebagai pengurai jamur mengeluarkan enzim, enzim ini memecah/merombak senyawa organik dari dari organisme yang sudah mati dan kemudian jamur akan menyerap produk rombakan tersebut dalam bentuk senyawa organik

Jamur Air (oomycota)
Hidup bebas : mendapat nutrisi dari sisa-sisa tumbuhan di kolam, danau, dan aliran air
Jaringan yang mati pada tumbuhan

Saprolegnia : menempel pada ikan atau hewan lain (akuatik)

Patogen
Plasmopora viticola : buah anggur (jamur putih)
Phtophthora infestans : ( penyakit busuk layu pada sayuran)

Reproduksi : aseksual yang menghasilkan sporagonium di ujung hifa , lalu di sporagonium mengasilkan spora” berflagel. Zoospora matang dan keluar dari sporagonium, dan bila jatuh di tempat yang sesuai ia akan berkecambah dan tumbuh menjadi miselium baru

Reproduksi : seksual terjadi penyatuan gamet jantan dan betina, (jantan : anteridium) (betina: oogonium) lalu dihasilkan zigot diploid yang berkembang menjadi spora berdinding tebal. Spora berkecambah menghasilkan miselenium baru


Jamur Lendir (myxomycota) ( Dictyostelium discodeum)

Hidup bebas : amoeboid karena mirip amoeba
Merupakan predator fagosit (menelan bakteri hama spora dan berbagai komponen organik)

Siklus hidup
Tubuh buah dengan struktur pengasilan spora melepaskan spora
Berkembang menjadi amoeboid, makan tumbuh dan breproduksi melalui pembelahan sel secara itosis
Saat makanan sedikit amoeboid mengelompokan menjadi satu agregat yang berlendir
Agregat lendir berkembang dan menjadi struktur yang mengandung spora atau dapay juga bermigrasi ke suatu tempat


Protista Menyerupai Hewan (Protozoa)
Uniseluler dan heterotrofik

Ciri Tubuh :
Mikroskopis
Bentuk sel berubah / tetap
Alat gerak berupa pseudopodia, silia, flagelum
Terdiri dari membran sel, sitoplasma, vakuola makanan, vakuola kontraktil dan inti sel

Membran sel : pelindung serta mengatur keluar masuknya makanan dan gas (sisa makanan padat)
Inti sel : mengontrol aktivitas pada sel
Vakuola makanan
Vakuola kontrktil (berdenyut) ( sisa makanan cair)


Cara Hidup

Heterotrof dan memangsa bakteri, sampah organisme

Habitat :

Amoeba – ectomoeba(hidup di luar tubuh organisme)
Amoeba proteus (hidup di air tawar jernih)
Arcella dan disflugi (hidup di laut)

-Entamoeba (hidup di dalam tubuh organisme)(parasite menyebabkan penyakit)
entamoeba hystolitica , diare
entamoeba disentriae , diare
entamoeba ginggivalis sisa makanan
entamoeba coli (usus manusia)
membusukan sisa makanan
pembentukan vitamin k – pembekukan darah

Reproduksi

Pembelahan biner (aseksual) pembelahan inti, lalu sitoplasma
Penyatuan inti sel vegetatif (seksual)(gamet) konjugasi

Kista protozoa degan sel tidak aktif
Di selubung oleh kapsul polisakarida yang menguntungkan misalnya kekeringan. Jika kondisi lingkungan membaik , kista akan pecah dan protozoa keluar untuk hidup kembali

Rhizopoda

Bergerak dengan penjuluran sitoplasma yang membentuk preudopia(kaki semu)

Berfungsi sebagai alat gerak dan memangsa makanan

Globigerina bercangkang
Amoeba proteus telanjang

Tidak memiliki bentuk tetap karena struktur berubah-ubah
Ektoplasma : plasma sel bagian luar
Endoplasma : plasma bagian dalam

Aseksual dengan pembelahan biner

Umumnya hidup bebas di tanah yang lembab

Amoeba proteus tanah lembab
Difflugia di air tawar

Ciliata
Bergerak dengan siliata ( ramut getar) berfungsi infusoria, dan alat bantu makanan
Dari sitostoma ke sitofaring
Makronukleus : fungsi vegetatif (pertumbuhan dan perkembangbiakan)
Mikronukleus : reproduktif
Trikokis pertahanan diri dari musuh

Hidup bebas di air tawar/ laut
Aseksual , pembelahan biner dan seksual

Flagellate
Bergerak dengan bulu cambuk (flagellum
Sebagian besar mempunyai 2 flagelum ( depan sel – anterior) ( belakang sel-posterior)
Aseksual dan seksual
Hidup bebas di air, simbiosis, parasite

Sporozoa
Kelompok Protista uniseluler yang pada atu tahapan dalam siklus membentuk seperti spora
Tidak memiliki alat gerak, hidup sebagai parasi
Aseksual dan seksual

it looks easy because it's only quater of what i should learn, and more i didn't write the greek thingy,,,

Ballet by Corel Draw

my childhood wish ♥

Well it seems that most little girl was expected that their life would be like a fairytale, to be a princess that live in a far far away land and life in a mezmerising palace of my own kingdom. Feel the fresh air from the my PINK royal suite window everytime i wake up. Then have a luxurious bath in a bathub made of silver and theirs my personal maid rubbing my feet and never worried of how to wash my back. Don't forget about F.A.B.U.L.O.U.S ! Closet with tons of dresses from the collection of my private designer and all of the old and new collections of bags, shoes, jeweleries and other glitz and glam to made my own mall. When I use my crown and walking gracefully in the hall ways or the balcony or my parents throne waving hands while everyone bowing to me. And walking through my garden with my royal pet and then i sit beside a water fountain and look into the clear crystal water and seeing my face, then i started to sing a harmony then all the animal start to come near me,(all i mean except for CATS, I hate that creature), then we dance playing all the music instrument and it all end with a burst of laughter. In the morning i have my studies about science geography maths and for sure about sort of this about how to rule kingdom 101 until the court decide i'm ready. In the afternoon i usually had a tea with the queen,(queen i mean, my mom), with a biscuit or the most delicious pastries ever made, of course made my most talented private cook. At night i usually had a royal party, were there's wine and fine gourmet, dance with the bachelor along with a classic instrumental music. i could have all things. I want, just ring the bell and the maids comes running in, having all the things that no ones else does, and having a pony as birthday gift. Until one day i meet hot sexy handsome prince charming that made my life happily ever after. But it's not my. only dream, i also dream to be supermodel or a superstar. Before becoming one i wanted to be a spoiled rich daughter of a businessman where i have all the toys during kindergarten, and having a double pink locker. Date all of the boys in the school and graduate as a cute sexy hot prom queen. Then go to beverly hills or malibu become a superstar or supermodel have my own jets, private make up artist, private hairdresser, my own manager, having chase by all the paparazzi even when i get a new nail poolish. Or having tons of fans craving for my signature at backstage, and becoming the most famous artist ever. The most bestseller album or other products like perfumes or clothes brand. and then after i meet a normal guy, have a date, he told me that i'm the most beautiful girl in his life, bring me present or flowers having a secret date in a romantic place and get married and move to country side where everything seems so peaceful and warm and nice. Well my childhood dreams seems too imaginative and wild, but it rocks and nice.. HAHAHAHAHA but it's only a dream, wish that might come true..

blogging harian

Dear Blogger,

Beberapa minggu belakangan ini, gw ska blogging, karna cmn lewat blogging gw msa berekspresi, curhat n just be my self.. Revealed my self.. Being honest to my self, about what i really feel..

Cuman uda beberapa hari ini, blog gw sangat susah untuk d bka melalui  ... I don't know, sometime they say the server were busy (damn it's impossible, i only have 9 follower and non of them even open my blog) and just know i have to verified my blog ?? What the ?? Did anyone try to hack my blog ?? Hell no.. I hope no.. Ngapain jg mw d hack ?? Follower 9 doank..

2 hari yg lalu gw nga blogging karna ........... (Gw lupa,hahahaha) ooo iya, hr senen kemaren gw ke itc.. Bil na sich mw cari baju bali, tp nyokap gw nga bisa d lawan, shopping terus.. Tiap kli mw beli baju/celana dy slalu ngo, "kita nga ada kan de ?" What the.. Sumpah gw kesel.. Badan gw lebih gede dri pada lu.. Gw bahkan nga muat.. Jadi bete... Seakan" kita bsa sharing, jd gw hrs nntn'in dy blanja.... Trus ntah knp mlm na gw nntn go go girls... Jijik sumpah... Nga nga nga kuat, sama playboy... Euwwww... Hoeeekkksss, i still don't believe it... Tp ada bener nya jg sich... Playboy, nga kuat boooo hahaha

Dan kmaren hrs na ambil rapot o'level, tp karna pada bil blum ready jd gw nga ke skull... Awal bil kmaren, jam nga d kasi tw.. Yg uda pd dtng d bil bsk... Tba" jam 12 uda bsa d ambil... Aneh bin ajaib... Owwh iya kmaren gw ngedit photo bwt portfolio.. Bgs bgt... Nga sabar mw cetak... Trus kmaren ke m2s breng angel cmn jln" makan waffle a&w, beli cd banyak.. Jd mls kmn"... Mlm na gw tba" ngerasa gw gendut bgt... Jadi smlm gw olahraga mw kecilin betis n paha.. Astaga cape na ampe tepar...

N tadi pg ke skull bwt ambil rapot o'level.. Tapi gara" nyokap lupa bayar school fee june, rapot na nga mau d kasi... TRIAS bner" krang ajar BABI tuh org... Sumpah kesel... Kasia aja sich rapot na, gw enk lu nga repot... Kayak gw nga bakal bayar school fee aja.. N yg lebi nyebelinnya lg dy tlp ke hum cmn bil suru bayar school feem. Sumpah najis bgt... Kayak apa aja gw... Emnk na gw nga bakal bayar apa... TRIAS BABI yg kmaren dtng rapot d kasi" aja, padahal ada yg blum bayar school fee jg... Sumpah gw bner" keki ma TRIAS... Tp hri ni gw bkin cupcake, n untuk pertama kali, jadi n bgs bgt... Sumpaha gw seneng bgt..ntar klo dah abis mw bkin lg ah...tapi sumpah cape bgt... 3 jam bru slesai uda plus garnish jg sich... Hahahaha uda dlu yah ngantuk...

i'm growing

Dear Blogger,

Gw bner" butuh tempat curhat, n kayak na ini satu-satu na cara...
Emnk dlm beberapa hari ini gw lg banyak masalah, mood gw uda mulai balik..

Tapi hri ni gw bru sadar
Gw bru ngerti
How much it hurt, when your friend lie to you
I feel really defeated
I'm scared, because after all of this time
We're not really friend...
We're more like FRIENEMIES..

I just wanna stop right now, i wanna stop lying..
I wanna be honest n especially to my self..

Jadi temen gw ada yg secara nga langsung nyadarin gw...
Gw merasa d tipu sama dy, walaupun gw nga tw dy bohong sama gw pa nga..
Tapi rasa na sakit bgt...

Dy bil dy ke mangdu, tp kyk na dede na pergi vto, d tmpt gw voto cal..
Gw bner" kesel.., bener" kesel..
Jadi makin banyak bad thought gw tntang dy..
Walaupun, sbner na gw nga tw dy bener'an bohong apa nga...


Brapa minggu ini, gw kesel mulu.m
Gw ngerasa d bebani..
Terlalu banyak pikiran..
GOD I can't take it anymore... Please, help me ! Would You ?
Knp masalah datang na bertubi"..
Bahkan masala gossip yg bil hri ni mau kiamat..
Oke d mulut gw bil gw nga percaya..
Tp gw tkt bgt... Gw sbner na concern..
Blum lg masalah cowo...

Akhir na hri ni, detik ini gw sadar..
Masala bkn ngejar-ngejar gw..
Masala itu dtng dri gw sndiri...
Sbner na gw ska, klo banyak yg ska ma gw..
I love all of the attention..
I love all of the caring and loving..
The more people like me, the more i enjoy it..
Tp gw ska ngelak, iya emnk kdng risih, tp sesaat doank..
Kadang karna gw sndiri mls..
Gw terlalu egois, anggep remeh smua org...

N masala" gw d bohongin tmn ?
Kyk na gw terlalu berprasangka buruk..
Sejujur na gw nga ska klo ada tmn gw yg voto d situ..
Gw tkt hasil na lebih bgs..
Gw tkt kalah..

Gw ska jealous...
Gw tkt org ngo'in gw
Gw tkt d salahin
Gw emank egois
Gw emank kurang ajar..

Tapi gw bener" tertekan, i expect more from my self
I don't like when people is better than me...

Tapi se'engga na gw blajar bahwa 15 thn ini, gw banyak ngelaku'in kesalahan..
N mulai dari skarang gw mw blajar, be my self, jd lebih baik..
Mom, Dad, see ? You Daughter is growing..
I'm improving my self..

I used to beg to GOD
From now onwards, i would just keep saying Thanks to HIM !!!

untitled

Dear Blogger,

Pasti pada bertanya", knp kok judul na untitled.. Well because gw nga mw kasi judul apa, selain itu jg males.. Jadi abis baca, bkin kesimpulan sendiri aja, kasi judul sendiri..

Hr ni nothing special.. Cmn gw bgn pagi bwt kumpul rapot O'level.. Bkin repot aja, udah liburan bru d suru kumpul skarang... Bner" kurang kerjaan.. Nga sih sbner na gw cmn pura" lupa kumpul rapot, gw pikir nga d tagih yah nga usah di kumpul.. Toh blum d ttd jg.. (Gw blum kasi liat bonyok, nilai na ancur abis).. Alhasil gw pagi" ke skull kumpul rapot... Sengaja dtng pagi" karna mls ketemu guru".. Pasti jd ribet persoalan nya.. Ckckckck autis abis dah gw...


Trus pulang deh tuh.. Sarapan nasi uduk, trus rada siangan pergi cari baju bali bwt, graduation... Daerah roxy, alamat na yg kasi temen nyokap yg super duper ribet, awal na gw uda nga percaya, tapi karna emnk butuh, akhir na pergi lah.. Feeling gw bner aja..m alamat na nga pasti.. Udah jauh" macet, panas.. Nga dpt apa" gila... Ujung" na dpt bju bali dket rumah sendiri.. Swt bgt nga sich.. Alamat 5 mnt dri rumah.. -______- bner" kacau...


Ngomong" hri ni gw kok banyak nntn film masak ibu yah... Kuliner semua.. Ada kali 6-7 acaram. Ckckck suram liburan gw... Hahahah tp emnk libur nga ada tandingan na.. Makan,nonton, tdrn jln" feel like in heaven.... Uda kayak babi...

Kadang gw kebiasaan bsa mikir hal" aneh, yg uda lewat... Td lg kutak-kutik hp.. Trus ada yg update status tntang sayang" cinta.. Jadi inget koko gw.. Dy klo d tanya, lu suka noh cewe yah ? Dy bil nga, gw nga suka, gw sayang.. So sweet... Dah gt gombal bgt lg dia.. Tp ttp aja nga dpt".. Hahah jomblongenes.. Wkakakaka.. LOL, ngo" soal koko, td pg pas lg uring"an d kamar nyokapbgw d ganggu'in dy.. Padahal gw nga salah apa"... Gw d cubit sakit na minta ampun sampe gw nangis... Hahahahaha...

Udah dlu ah.. Mw ke bawah. Bosen d kamar..., abis dri td mw bka blog susah bgt.. Page busy, bla bla bla.. Najis... Jd nga gt niat. Hahahah

i hate us being enemies !!!

Dear Blogger,

Once i have a best friend
A very good friend of mine
Indeed, she's the best !!!
She's there when i need her
And so did I
A big sister..
I always thought she was my sister
But this lately
I don't know what happen
We got into a stupid fight
She keep avoiding me
And i feel that she change
Change a lot in personality

I hate us being enemies !!!
Could we switch back time
Wishing that we could always be
Best Friend that we used to be

Wanna us to be the way we use to be..

Today, i read you bbm status, i feel bad that you're crying
At first, i felt happy, but in the end.. You still are my best friend
No matter how you change, no matter how much i hate you, no matter how much you hate me..
We still are best friend..

I read your tweet, i feel so bad, that i can't cheer you up..
What if i did, would you consider me ??
I hate to see my friend heart broke..
You seems a little ego, he's not your boy friend..
But i know how much it hurts, even you don't admit it..

I wanna cheer you up, wanna hold you tight, wanna wipe your tears and say that everything will be alright.. Made your spirit up.. And told you, he's not the only guy, GOD, what could do ?? I can't.. I'm even jealous with those girl that cheer her up...

No matter how much i try to hate you, i just hate us being enemies..
I know that you wouldn't read this.. But i'm really sorry, i feel bad.. Hope you understand..

tommorow will be a brighter day !

Dear Blogger,

I'm really happy today.. Atleast uda nga mikirin cowo kurang ajar itu..

Kemaren mlm sentrum d grj, awal na main volley, astaga diem gw... Nga bisa sama skali, serve masuk skali karna bola na gw anggep cowo babi kurang ajar itu.. Pelampiasan..
Encong pembawa keberuntungan, 2 kali main 2 kali menang.. Hahaha
Trus maleman dikit main futsal.. Ini mending.. Seru, gokil.. Cape mau meninggal..


Tw nga masa sich cowo kurang ajar itu dtng, tp lewat doank.. Cemen.. Sok gaya"an.. Naik motor.. Ngebut" najis..
N untuk si ____ uda byasa aja sich.. Tp gw nga brani ngeliat dy, dy jg mw nyebut atau ngo ke gw, liat jg rada nga enk.. Kayak na uda bener" sakit ati.. Abis gmn.. Gw hrs gmn ?? Gw klo d dket'in cowo risih..


Udalah kemaren dah lewat.. Hri ni gw ke salon.. Trus jalan" ke ancol sama sodara.. Awal na kecewa, mau ke pasar seni tp nga ada yg bagus.. Liat lukisan, dll pingin punya workshop di situ.. Walaupun sepi.. Tapi pasti enk.. Stiap hari bkin karya seni.. Santai" denger lagu.. Next, Trus akhir na nongkrong di starbuck.. Trus ke la bridge.. Udara na, pemandangannya.. Bener" TOP BGT !!! Adem.. Bagus bgt.. Iya nga ada apa".. Tapi sejuk hati.. Rasa na seneng.. Tentram.. Enk bgt.. Trakhir makan d bandar djakarta.. Makanan na biasa aja, cmn makan nasi pke ikan kerang n kangkung + minum kelapa muda dri batok.. Tapi pemandangan laut malem.. Pke lampu" trus ada musik" liat kapal"... Bagus bgt !!! Rasa nya bru sadar.. Indonesia tuh cantik bgt... Pemandangan oke, kekayaan alam oke, budaya nga usah d bil.. Org" na ramah pula.. Mall bgs".. Cmn kurang d rawat aja...

Tapi sayang bgt remaja skarang nga mw ke ancol, museum", tmii, padahal bgs bgt... Hri ni seneng bgt.. Bisa relax.. Walaupun bsk hrs kumpul rapot O'level --"... But tommorow will be a brighter day.. Ada gossip bsk kiamat.. Hahah gw sich ketawa" aja.. Tuhan yg ngatur.. Mau manusia ngo apa, klo Tuhan ngo lain.. Inti na GOD IS THE BEST NOW, FOREVER and ALWAYS ♥ thx GOD, Muachhhhhh :*

NGA ABiS PIKIR !

Dear Blogger,

Gmn rasanya di hianatin ???

*not about romance*

Uda 2 kali gw kecewa, and it's all because of photography !!

Pertama sama best friend gw gitu.. Yang skarang tingkah na kayak sok dewasa, sok kepede'an nga jelas..

Kedua, skarang jadi ada 1 tmn gw.. Cewe, tmn biasa, tp dy kyk tba" angkat gw jd ade angkat dy --" gajelas.. Ya udalah yah, gw jg nga mau cari ribut jg kan...
Nah dy itu modern dancer skaligus ballerina, dan gw emank uda mlai tergila" dgn photography, jadi setiap ada model, yah gw voto...

Eh, nama na tingkah manusia, smakin menjadi"..
Entah emank gw moto na bgs, atau pada kege'eran.. Astaga naga...

Dy nge bohongin gw...
Voto ballerina chanel couture d jadi'in dp, n dy ngaku" itu dy... Dgn harapan gw moto dy...
Dy bil uda lupa voto itu dmn, uda lama, trus baju na punya sanggar n nga bsa d pinjem.. Wth. Klo bkn lu, yah nga usah ngaku" kali.. Bkin kekei.. Klo emnk mw voto, yah bil... Astagam.. Kesel stengah mampus gw...


Now, what should i do ???

THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU REGRET IT !!!!

Dear Blogger,

Gara" uda libur jadi sempet nulis mulu nih... Asyik...
Gw punya beberapa tips bwt para wanita"..
Segala keputusan pasti ada konsekuensi nya, berpikir lah matang" karena penyesalan selalu datang belakangan... Ingat baik" yah...

Cinta itu BUTA !!!
Buat para wanita", jangan pikir yang nama nya pacaran itu selalu enak...
Cinta itu BUTA !!!
Awalnya aja enak...

Oke jadi sebener nya gw kapok, bisa d bilang trauma...
Sampe sekarang pun gw masi nga abis pikir.. Kenapa gw bisa suka sama tuh cowok biadab

Bae kagak
Ganteng kagak
Kurang ajar iya
Nyebelin iya
Playboy iya
Inti na nga banget deh...
Kampungan abis..

Astaga astaga astaga astaga naga raya....
Amit" gw... Kok gw bego bgt dlu bsa suka sama dy

Bayang'in pas masi jadian (euw) tuh babi ganti nomor nga bilang"..
Asli tuh org bokep, smoke, euw bgt...

Jadi sebener na dlu itu gw slalu iri ngeliat org pacaran...
Nah gara" itu, gw jd gampang ska ma org.. Jadi skali d tembak gw lngsng trima... ( Bodoh nya diri gw) tmn" gw pd bil sayang bgt org klo org kayak gw dpt org kayak si babi... Amit" euww...

Gw rasa skarang ni babi puas bgt, karna skarang hidup dalam bayang" si babi mlu..., bkn karna gw masi ska... Amit" tapi nih babi kurang ajar, bkin gw takut sama yang nama na cinta... Karna lebih enk single dari pada jadian nga jelas, PDKT itu lebih enak... Skarang gw bner" risih klo ada cowo yg ska ma gw...

Oke gw jujur, gw org na gengsian, gw nga ska karna dy kurang oke menurut gw... Jadi klo ada cewe yang bil tampang nga penting.. Bullshit... Emank bae itu penting... Tapi skarang lu nga bsa segampang itu ngo tampang nga penting... Bae doang nga cukup... Manusia itu egois bgt...

Dan sangat munafik klo ada org bil, dlu pas PDKT, pacaran muji" pas putus aja... Setiap org pasti ada reason sendiri...

Sekali lagi gw nyadar, klo gw bener" jahat, oke klo org bil gw cmn mainin hati org, karna gw bner" nga sakit ati, dan bahkan gw seneng abis mutusin tuh babi..

Najis, labil bgt gw... Inti na gw pas pacaran nga ngerasa klop ma dy... Bkn pilihan tetap... Btw si babi bner" kurang ajar.. Masa nomor gw sembarangan d kasi ke org' amit.. Dasar KAMPUNGAN !!!!

Oke gw aku'in gw cewek perfectionist dalam hal memilih pacar/dll... Gw peduli org mw ngo apa, gw emank egois... Tapi terima apa nga ini kriteria gw :

1. super bae, super pengertian
2. bsa ngikutin mood n perasaan gw
3. Pinter
4. Ganteng
5. Nga KAMPUNGAN
6. Nga ALAY
7. No Smoke
8. No Drink
9. No DRUG
10.Bkn anak warnet
11.Rajin
12. Mau kerja keras
13. Mandiri
14. Stylish
15. Nga egois
16. Nga lebai
17. Nga over protective
18. Nga tempramental
19. Ber-KHARISMA
20. Bisa ngikutin kemauan gw
21. Easy going
22. Nga ngatur" idup gw
23. Nga comment tntang aktivitas gw
24. Rela gw kacangin, gw jauhin, karna gw byasa awal" risih
25. Rela ngejar gw sampe kapan pun
26. Rela nunggu'in gw sampe gw siap pacaran
27. Nga cemburuan
28. Nga jorok
29. Nga bokep
30. Beragama
31. Menghormati cewe
32. Nga possessive
33. Nga kuno
34. Nga lebih muda dri gw
35. Nga terlalu tua
36. Nga terlalu cuek
37. Jangan terlalu romantis
38. Nga ke geer'an
39. Nga sotoy n kepo
40. Bertanggung jawab, n berani kecewa
41. Rela backstreet (gw nga ska masalah cinta terlalu di umbar)
42. Nga mw long distance
43. Percaya ma gw
44. Nga neko"
45. Berwibawa
46. Nga ska gaya"an, sok jagoan
47. Nga ngebut"an
48. Nga suka bohong
49. Serius sama apa yg lg d jalan'in
50. Bisa terima 50 kriteria cowo gw..


Panjang bgt yah buset.. 50.. Bodo amat ah.. Yang penting klo ska jalan'in.. Klo nga ska.. Ya udah... Klo emnk jodoh nga kemana, uda d atur.. Nunggu aja.. Nga usah ngekar-ngejar.. Cape... Ganggu liburan aja...

emank nama na manusia nga pernah puas !

Dlu brapa thn yg lalu, klo doa, pasti minta, dpt cowo, stdk" na ada yg suka... Muluk" bgt... Hahah tkt nga laku.. Astaga na masi polos bgt jalan pikiran gw... Pacaran emnk na enk kli yah... Skarang.. Ke banyakan yg suka... Malah bikin gw pusing.. Risih... Mampus nga tuh5-6 org'an suka ma gw.. "Kyk na" bkn ke geer'an... Mala akhir na bikin pusing... Yg 1 masi kekecilan, yg 1 sensitif bgt, yg 1 kyk anak alay, yg satu, amit" denger nama na jg... Dll.. Pusing gila.. Takut bkin org sakit ati... Kan kasian... Oke skatang gw klo bisa ngulang waktu, gw bakal mikir" mw doa kyk gitu... LOL #cacadngaadaobat




Ckckckckckck manusia nga ada puas na emank... Sekedar sharing...

Btw, follower gw cmn 9... Gw kira nga ada yg baca... Tp ternyata aja jg loh... Shock stengah mampus gw... Hahahah lebay... Dah dlu yah... Mati lampu nih.. Gelap --"

today sucks ! frustating !

Dear Blogger,

Hhmmmmm.... Where should i begin ??? Kemarin malem, gw kebablasan nonton tv sampe jam 11 mlm... Oke emnk gw aku'in... Gw bkan tipe yang ska bergadang.. Gw bahkan kadang jam 8-9 uda tidur... Beauty sleep is important :p, kebo... Nga tau kena angin apa, gw nntn chef master indonesia yang full of drama nga jelas... (Still can believe it), trus big brother indonesia (What the hell happening to me, indovision uda nga ada, dvd uda nntn smua) trus gw nntn BOLA !!!!!!!!! OMG, secara gitu, gw olahraga aja kagak pernah... Boro" suru nntn bola, yang menurut gw cmn nntn'in sepetak lapangan hijau dengan semut" nga jelas selama 90 menit... Oke gw aku'in seru jg... MU menang liga yang bahkan gw uda lupa nama na... Padahal seri, trus liga na belum slesai, tapi mreka uda menang... Ane --"n gw nga ngerti ma skali... Hahahah first rule i don't do sport, second rule, i hate those sweat... Trus nonton PETIR yang bener" full of drama abis... Tp gw ska nntn, bgs, seru, gregetan sendiri... Hahahahaha LOL, gw mlai kampungan :p. Trus gw jg ke trap dgn dancing with celebrity..m stalh gw pikir" film indo nga jelek" bgt.... Hahahahaha.


Btw, means by the way... Gw kan harus na nga ngo'in kemaren mlm. Gara" smlm gw bergadang gw telat bgn bwt tgs pagi.. Omg... Buru" bgt... Sepanjang misa gw nguap mulu... Astaga naga raya! Nga ada obat... Trus bis itu ngumpul... Mls bgt hrs dketl sama ****. Risih boooooooooooo... Nga biasa, n much worse lg ada si ***** . Amit" amit" najis jijik klo mikir dy,amit" amit" euw euw jauh" dari pikiran gw. Trus ada rapat, sebelum bahas acara, si ** *** n si ** *** kyk ngo" gj gitu.. Astaga naga... Penting nga sich.m. Oke lah pelajaran skull mank nga sepenuhnya guna, tp jaman skarang ma dlu kan beda... Skarang masi bisa blajar knp nga... Mw kapan lg coba... We're young, still new and fresh. Nah bis itu nga kunjung slesai penderita'an gw.. Pulang dong, trus makan siang deh... Nyokap mala khotbah nga jelas... Mara" sendiri, kamu lauk banyak, org belum tentu bisa makan, terlalu manja, dkit" mba, dikit" mba... Mam dlu boro" mba, rawat dri sendiri, nyapu ngepel..yg aneh adalah gw padahal nga ngapa"in.... Aneh kan... Sering bgt tuh... Beh... Rese na... Panas ampe kuping. Trus uda kan gw nntn blad, dy mara" suru gw buru" benerin dvd portable.. Dlu gw nntn nga pernah kluar kamar dy marah... Skarang, gw nntn d kamar dy gara" dvd portable na rusak, dy suru cpt" bner'in.. Serbah salah.

Trus lg nntn, nyokap ganggu, dy minta tolong d make up in... Pertama gw make up cmn liat" org doank, kedua emnk gw nga bsa make up... Lgan lg nntnn wajar lah klo gw make up in na jelek... Dy mala marah"... Sebel na minta ampun astaga.... Rese rese rese... Dasar emak centil... Dy emosional gara" bokap gw nga nyampe" rumah... Mala gw kena imbas na.. Sial...

Trus uda tuh dy pergi dah tuh, gw masi nntn blad, ampe gw laper, gw turun. Turs bis mkn.m gw d ajarin maths ma koko ♥, bsk mw ulangan... Maths sucks... Konsep na gampang, begitu ketemu soal... Tetep aja gw kagak bsa... Lg blajar, bonyok pulang.. Beh nyokap mlai rese ganggu'in aja terusbawa" buah, comment, ribet lah jd na...


Nga tw knapa hri ni gw STRESS bgt, kuping panas, ati nga enak... Frustating bgt rasa na kadang gw pikir pingin commit suicide...(<- ngo doank, mana mungkin gw commit suicide... Hahaha). Udah ah uda kepnajangan kyk na nih...

i feel like a BITCH !!!

dear blogger !

what a really shocking title....
well, i do fill like a BITCH, is not that I'm "BITCH".
i feel sucks...
i'm a total LOSER !
gw selalu merasa diri gw yang paling hebat, and to be honest, i love all the attention that people give me..., i love when people love me the most.
and to be a total bad ass hole, i do talk behind my friends back....
gimana rasa nya klo lu minder, tmn" lu keren n supaya fit in, gw suka ngadu domba.....
i'm not trying to be a jerk...
but i just don't wanna be left behind....
i'm scared that people will go and talk behind my back....
i sometimes even lie to be cool infront of my friends to be truth it's to cover my own feelings....
GOD NO !!!! i totally hate my self right now....
i do feel like a BITCH....
what should i do...
at some point of time, i always think that i'm freaking great, beautifull, adorable and even talented.... people are jealous with me....
BUT, i'm actually the one that are jealous.....
i can't always be so good, i get jealous with my friend, and even with my own brother.
i do sometimes try to behave like super fabulous..., in the end i realized that i'm suck....
i just scared that people will leave me....

i try to be brave and honest.. i don't want people to underestimate me again...
so for those people who read this, don't be angry or leave me... i'm just trying to be honest everybody else, and more important thing is to be honest with my self, my thought and mind could be wrong... and i'm trying to fixed it....

galau tingkat tinggi !!!!!

Yuhuuuu blogger's long time no see....
Gila gw uda lama bgt nga posting.... Makin nga eksis aja gw...wkakakakaka...
Klo baca title na pasti WTH... Miris abis booo... Ngenes bgt...


Yup... Thats right.. Gw sedang galau tingkat paling tinggi, serasa menembus ke 7 lapisan bumi... LEBAI .... Hahahahahhaaha...

Oke gw sbner na gw sedang bingung... Hahahah tp ada menyangkut masalah cinta jg sich...

Pernah ada yang ngerasa kalau kadang kita nga fit in, smua org nga suka sama kita, dan smua yang kita lakukan itu salah ?? Klo nga pernah ngerasa mungkin gw yang aneh...(Jangan mikir gw ada masalah, gw emank suka membayangkan hal yang nga jelas... )

Pernah berpikir, apa yg d pikirkan org lain ? Pernah berpikir, gimana yah susah juga nge jelas'in nya... Eemmm, jadi seakan-akan kita sebagai org lain, gmn yah, skarang kan kita lg mikir'in sesuatu, trus pasti org lain jg donk, bagaimana klo kita jadi org itu, kita gmn ???

Nga ngerti yah ??? Gw jg jadi bingung sendiri, sudah lupakan saja...

Maka na gw ska mengalami galau...

Pernah nga hrs memilih sesuatu yg penting, dan secara terpaksa anda menyesal ?!? Nga enk bgt yah rasa nya... ?!? Nga enk bgt kan... Knp pembicara'an gw menclak-menclok yah ??? Nama na jg galau... Lg uan nich... Bner" takut tp gw coba bwt nyembunyi'in...

Uda lah nga usa bertele-tele... Inti na gw cmn mw bil galau gw itu gara" cinta... Entah kenapa d satu sisi gw jealous sama org yg mesra"an... Tapi d satu sisi gw tkt bwt pacaran... Hhhmmmm ???!??? Pingin coba rasa nya peluk"an, gandengan tangan, tp gw tkt d ledek'in, jijik, n gw takut d sakiti... Pengakuan seorang wanita.. Classic.. Jd gmn ??? Trus gw jg selektif, gw mw smua na perfect... Muna banget pas gw bil yg penting bae... Karna pada akhir na gw nntn jg org yg bner" care n dy hrs ckep... Minder jg.. Trus gw jg heran, nama d mata gw jg ngaruh, gw nga mw yg pasaran, norak.. WTH nga penting banget kan..m apa karna banyak menuntut gw jd mrrasa mudah tersakiti... Astaga..

Dan yang paling aneh adalah gw gampang ska sama org, n gampang ngelupain nya.... Itu knp gw bsa terjangkit galau tingkat tinggi... Trus gw jg ke geeran... Tp jg gampang kecewa... Labil skali... Bisa" gw jadi perawan tua... Back to topic galau... Jadi, gw dlu sempet ska sama saru cowo, 3 thn...(Lama bgt) ampe akhir na gw tw klo tuh cowo jg ska ma gw.. Tp gw tolak... (Nga tw knp) mungkin karna gw terlalu selektif n takut... Tp pada akhir na gw bner" dengan gampang melupa'in tuh cowo... Dan ntah knp jd menjauh gt.. Tuh cowo ampe skarang masi suka bgt(katanya). Tp gmn gw na udah ska sam cowo lain.. Nih cowo emnk nga terlalu anggep gw ada, n kayak na dy ska sama tmn gw, jd gw bil aja ke smua org gw nga ska siapa" (bo'ong). Ada lagi 1 cowo, dket, apa lagi skarang, nyaman, enk, bae, oke lah... Gw uda ge'er bgt... Tp yah masalah nya itu, gw terlalu gampang suka sama org sampe" gw nga tw perasaan gw sndiri... Ada lg 1 co yg gw rasa dy ska sama gw, kyk na cmn ke ge'erann gw. N cowok terakhir masi sd... Lucu bgt, imut bgt... Gw ska ledekin dy, karna dy versi imut n kecil dri koko gw, sampe suatu saat ada yg bil klo dy ska sama gw ??? SERIUS ??!!?? What should i do ?

Nga mungkin gw nge jauhin dy, karan pertama emnk lucu, ke 2 kan belm tentu itu bner... N sbner na gw itu pd na se langit, gw ska d ska'in banyak cowo, tp gw nga mw nge bls, gw jg nga mw ke hilangan mreka, bkn brarti gw playgirl...

D satu sisi, gw ternyat butuh dekapan seseorg, tp gw bner" takut ( gw blumm pernah, serius pacaran)(sbner na gw mw srius, tp prasaan suka gw cpt ilang, jd terkesan nga serius) gw bingung sama perasaan gw, apa emnk iya gw blum bner" ska sama seseorg ? Blum jodoh ? Terlalu tkt ? Emnk tipe yg nga bsa serius ? Atau emng blum saat na ??? Bingung ! Bingung... Galau.. Galau.. Terutama yg gw ska cowo, tp dy ska sahabat gw... N gw nga enk jd gw bil gw nga suka... Duh... Galau... Gmn ?!? Cowo na jg nga gt care.. Banyak pikirang... Galau ! Galau !!! Galauuuuu !!!!!!!!!!